Sunday, November 17, 2013

Psalm 147: 3-6

s:(scripture) 'He heals the heartbroken and bandages their wounds. He counts the stars and assigns each a name. Our Lord is great, with limitless strength. We'll never comprehend what He knows and does. God puts the fallen on their feet again.'

o:(observation) Wow! So much of this passage speaks to me right now. It tells me I have a healing God. That if He counts and names every star in the sky, then little old me, in this great big universe, is known by Him and important to Him. That I may never understand the 'why' of what I am facing. And that He will rise me up on my feet again. I should be in total AWE of His greatness, His ability to heal, His ability to know ME. Wow!

a:(application) Oh does this passage apply to me. Not only do I need physical healing but emotional as well. Because I am human. I question 'why' when my faith tells me I shouldn't. Because I am impatient in the waiting for the reason, the purpose. I'm angry. I'm weary. I'm tired. But this passage to me is all about my faith. I need to be able to look in the mirror, truly look at myself, the way my God sees me. Allow myself to love 'me', like He does, even now. Remind myself that He sees me. He knows. He feels my pain. He understands my questioning heart. Believe, with everything in me, that only He has the power to heal my weary body and my struggling heart. And know and understand that His idea of healing may not be my own. This passage is a lesson of not depending on this world, but completely on Him. I put too much faith in so many things of this world and not enough on Him.

p:(prayer) 'Lord..I know I fail you daily. I know I am terrible about coming to you only when I'm in desperate need. I'm asking for your help here. I need you to light a spark. I need you to wrap your faithful arms around me, like the petals of this sunflower. Protect me with your arms until You are ready for me to shine once again. Remind me that you 'know' everything about me and still love me as your most precious child. Please be with me in my pain. Replace the anger and hurt with love and acceptance. And show me how to move forward in a way that pleases you, a way that honors you. Show me that I cannot do this alone. I fall daily and You are the only one that has the strength to help me rise to my feet again each morning. Show me where my importance is now and how I can be a blessing to others since my life has changed. Use this change for Your good. Thank you for Your unfailing love and endless blessings in my life.

I recently found this 'SOAP' method of learning and understanding scripture on an Instagram post. I researched it and I felt led to utilize my love of photography and blogging as part of this learning method. 


Friday, November 15, 2013

A look Into My Nesting Place

funny how we girls feel the urge to 'nest' at so many
different times in our lives. i truly feel men don't have this need. and they
certainly don't 'get it'.
i think it's the need to feel comfort in our own space.
especially in our homes.
and especially when we are facing trying times.
we need that spot where we can curl up,
get warm, think, pray, be creative and be

i finally had to put aside the physical and emotional
turmoil that has been running every moment of every day..
and build 'my nest'. (with a little help of course)
all 3 men in my home didn't 'get it'
and there was a ton of grumbling.
but upon completion they were in awe at my creation
and that made me smile.

i got it done just before my surgery yesterday and i 
long for the moment that i can light a candle, light a fire,
curl up, be warm and be comfortable.
but for now, i will enjoy just seeing it.
because it speaks to me
and welcomes me in.

i long to be healed.
i long to be curled up.
i long to be warm and safe.
until then..
enjoy a look into
'my nesting place'.